Tuesday, October 7, 2008

I think I have lost my mind

I have too much on my plate.

There's work, where the idea of taxing a skeleton staff beyond its limits is commonplace.

There's chorus, which is prepping for a show in a couple weeks and a HUGE competition in just another month.

There's the kids, who need need need. Unless they're nasty, in which case they aggravate aggravate aggravate.

There's cheerleading, which, obviously isn't on MY plate, per se, but the schlep factor involved in getting the Roo-girl to football games, tumbling, pep rallies, car wash ticket-selling opportunities, parades and (soon) competitions is daunting.

There's the rat dogs, who still insist on peeing on the sofa and crapping on the floor. The less said about THAT the better.

There's the house, which has a clutter factor that is making me feel claustrophobic and, at the same time, unable to unable to straighten.

And with all that, I still feel ...

It.

The written word.

The power of the pen.

And the pull of the story that I have carried for 10 years.

November is NaNoWriMo -- National Novel Writing Month.

And in a fit of the crazies, I have signed up.

Signed up to write 50,000 words in a month. Signed up to turn my story into a fictionalized tale.

I have always wanted to do it but was afraid of it. A year-plus of blogging, however, has freed my inhibitions -- and my muse.

What have I got to lose? My sanity, perhaps. Time (sorry, honey, I know this won't thrill you).

I announce this publicly as a way of forcing myself to GO for it and not to give up.

But honestly? Failure is an option.

And I'm ok with that, too.

33 comments:

Karen said...

I am totally behind you, supporting you---can you see me over here giving you the high five? I feel like I have a story in me, too, but I am not to the point where I can get it out.

Aoj and The Lurchers said...

Wow, that's quite an undertaking, well done you!

I'm guessing that this isn't going to be the easiest of stories to write, so I wish you strength to see it through.

Eternal Sunshine said...

You can do it! But, if you don't for whatever reason, that's OK, too!

Just be true to yourself...

And good luck!!

nikki said...

Wow, go you. Failure is an option, but I think no matter what you write or how much you write, you will NOT fail. Especially with the story you want to write.

(Did I say "write" enough...."

Kristi said...

Good Luck!!

Shelley said...

Wow! I just read your story and that's all I can come up with. WOW! I think writing about this will be difficult, but it shows you are working through it and healing. Best of luck. Keep us posted along the way!

Kaytabug said...

Seriously you kick ass! Even if you don't complete the 50,000 words in one month then at least you have started it and will finish it. I know you will! This story will kick ass!!
I'm with aoj, I am wishing you the strength to see this through and I will be cheering you on every step of the way!!! XOXO

Janet said...

Yeah, but sanity is overrated, right? You won't really miss it that much :-) Good luck!

ChrisB said...

Difficult and painful as it might be I think you are going to write an amazing story. I wish you good luck.

lattemommy said...

Wow. That's an ambitious project. Emotionally ambitious. But I suspect that 10 years distance and a dry run of telling the story a couple of months ago means that you'll weather the storm. Good luck with NaNoWriMo. Will you share your progress with us???

Jaina said...

::hugs:: I just caught up on the story. I think you should go for it, absolutely. I'm behind you 1000% ;) You can totally do this!

LceeL said...

Do it. Absolutley do it. Pain. Agony. Misery. All of those tihngs, Yes. that's what you've signed on for. But what a HIGH at the end - when it's done.

I'll be watching.

Tiggerlane said...

You can do it! Your writing is so compelling...and you have an amazing story.

Write!

Oh, and I have ONE kid - a cheerleader, and all-region choir auditioner (this weekend)...and it's enough to make me want to scream. Hang in there!

Beckie said...

If anybody can do it - you're the one!

Jennifer, Playgroups Are No Place For Children said...

Oooh, good for you! I'd love to do NaNoWriMo and maybe I will someday when I'm actually in a writing groove.

Looking forward to reading all, okay most, of your 50,000 words!

Jessi said...

Good look with Nano!! I actually decided not to do it this year. After doing it several years in a row and pulling my hair out I decided I didn't like the bald look. I'll probably stick with Nablo this year. :) Can't wait to see what you come up with

Tara R. said...

This sounds both exciting and scary. Good luck in your endeavor. I hope you share the results with all of us.

anglophilefootballfanatic.com said...

Hmmm. My bloglines is being funky. You had the red exclamation point - and I KNEW you'd posted when it said you hadn't. HMMM.

You are so going to ROCK the 50k. You have so many stories to tell.

LaskiGal said...

I am SO PROUD of you for doing this. I am a huge supporter of this.

It is all about spilling your guts (or words, in this case) on the virtual paper.

You'll be amazed at what you'll accomplish. And, did you see all the people who've gone on to publish???

It is awesome. I'll be loudly cheering here on the sidelines!

Karen said...

You're my new hero. Go. Conquer. And write.

Nap Warden said...

Go you...and good luck with it!

swampy said...

When you find your mind, would you check to see if mine is there also?
If so, please mail it back to me.
Good luck on your endeavor. As for me, I'm off to take a nap.

Momisodes said...

You too!??!!

*sigh*

I wanna do it...

but I'm too chicken.

I just know you'll rock it out though :)

Momo Fali said...

Go for it! Do it for me and all the other sorry-ass people who have books in their heads but can NEVER find the time to work on them.

Janet said...

I did the NaNoWriMo last year. I pretty much "failed" (15,000 words) but you know what? The book is still percolating in my mind. It's not dead: it's simply waiting patiently until I have time to pick up where we left off.

Go. Write. Tell your story.

Zoeyjane said...

rock on!

Janet said...

As others said, this will be a difficult story, but I know you will tell it brilliantly. We will read everything you give us. And you know, even if you only write a few lines, you haven't failed.
I don't know if I'll even do NaBloPoMo. It's not really a challenge anymore, since every format allows you to postdate things.

Pamela said...

go go go speed erasure. (little play on words)

You're holding down the fort of blogging.

robinellablog said...

I cannot believe it is November (almost) again! Holy crappola!

I, for one, am thrilled you are writing a novelette for our viewing pleasure. It will be on here right?

Good luck to you on that.

Tink said...

Good luck! Sometimes, to makes something great, you have to push your limits.

Rachael said...

You are nuts. But in a totally awesome way. Good luck!

Suzanne said...

Janet, I know you can do it. Think of it as therapy of the written word.

Words leave scars, it's just that they're easier to hide...

Trannyhead said...

Good for you! How utterly hawt to do something so ambitious.

 
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